Le Crush

“I have a crush on this guy, OMG! He is so cool and mysterious. He isn’t your typical hot guy with a fine body and a cheeky smile but he is definitely something.”

How many times have you had these words? It starts way back in primary school when you start noticing him or her, how they write their notes, cover their books and entertain other pupils with the compelling tales that the only the average young primary school boy can spin.

Sigh.

Having a crush is fun and daunting at the same type, especially for the shy kind like me (ahem). It is so silly that you want to see this person as much as possible as you watch him/her go about their day to day tasks in that ‘special’ way, as you secretly smile at how awesome you think they are. At the same time, you itch for that unplanned eye-to-eye contact and you’re not sure what to do next so you end up doing or saying something silly that you regret all week. Smh 

Imaginary conversations? C’mon, if you have or have had a crush then you have had some of those fantasy conversations where he/she says the right thing and you respond in a clever but captivating way that you believe will capture their interest, and heart. You imagine you will make them laugh; that they will discover that you are oh so cool, and that they will realize- insert lightbulbs- that they have liked you for the longest time. GFF. Is this sad? That in this fantasy world that causes you to smile sheepishly as you make your way through crowded streets, supermarkets, at home and in the bus as you make your way home, especially when it rains. Smh 

Especially when it rains. Do you look out of the window pretending you live in those ‘movie’ and ‘music video’ houses, play the right music and think about your crush and think about a stimulating conversation (among other things) with him/her as he/she realizes what a beautiful mind you have and how good looking you really are? No? c’mon!

The beauty about the crush is that they sort of know but are not sure and they better not find out, because if and when they do, it evaporates, disappears, poof it’s gone….and it is disappointing. It kills the mystery, makes things awkward and you’re left searching for the next best crush.

Smh.